"When did you realise that you didn't love this guy?" He asked. "Maybe I never did. Not until I met you at least. I guess even after we broke up, I searched for him in every person I saw. When I first saw you, I saw him in you."
"Woah. Now I don't even get to keep my uniqueness. That's not fair." Roan mocked.
"I know it's stupid but I saw you and he flashed in my mind. I've been so nervous around you for months and you didn't even know. You never knew me but I saw you everyday. You used to pass by me and my heart pumped so hard, my veins they'd thicken and make my face went pink, I used to shiver. I could not even make an eye contact with you without getting nervous and anxious." I frowned. "Who said I didn't know you?" "You did?" "Maybe, you'll never know." He winked. "But shivering, isn't it too much? I wasn't a monster. I wouldn't have eaten you."
"I'm an anxious person, don't be judgemental." I laughed.
"The first time I ever brought you here, I imagined the same exact scenario. You pulling me closer, I stepping back. You telling me it'll be perfect and promising me forever and then bang, our perfect kiss. But you didn't and guess what? I realised that day, you aren't him and I love you. I've always searched you in everyone else but settled for people like him because I had almost given up on your existence. I'm so glad about your entire existence. I love you Roan, promise me you won't leave. Promise me you'll provide me the forever I deserve " I cried to him.
How hard was it for me to know that nothing lasted forever and I still hoped for him to last a lifetime.
How hard was it for me to know he was leaving someday and hoping him not to.
Have you ever been in a situation where you knew what you needed exactly and you could have it too but it wasn't to last forever so you just break down and shed tears hoping the water to take away your pain.
"I can't promise you to never leave but I promise to fall in love with you a little more each day till I last." He said. I knew that. I just didn't want to hear it. Hearing I never will, would have been more comfortable. But that was the best part about Roan, he never comforted me with his lies but scratched me with bitter scars; truthful scars. Maybe that is why even after all this time I get butterflies in my belly by just looking at him.
I wept like a baby, he wrapped his warm arms around me. My head on his chest, my ear exposed to his heartbeat, all I could think of was, what if this all ends tomorrow? What if this is the end? I couldn't lose him, it would be too hard to find myself then because losing him would make me lose myself; And I couldn't afford to lose myself. So I hugged him like I'd never leave. The night sky had so many other stories to encounter but somehow it felt as if they all were just listening to us close. Maybe tonight was our night. One night I'd never forget. A night stars would remember as well, and the moon would've cried upon too.
To be continued...
"Woah. Now I don't even get to keep my uniqueness. That's not fair." Roan mocked.
"I know it's stupid but I saw you and he flashed in my mind. I've been so nervous around you for months and you didn't even know. You never knew me but I saw you everyday. You used to pass by me and my heart pumped so hard, my veins they'd thicken and make my face went pink, I used to shiver. I could not even make an eye contact with you without getting nervous and anxious." I frowned. "Who said I didn't know you?" "You did?" "Maybe, you'll never know." He winked. "But shivering, isn't it too much? I wasn't a monster. I wouldn't have eaten you."
"I'm an anxious person, don't be judgemental." I laughed.
"The first time I ever brought you here, I imagined the same exact scenario. You pulling me closer, I stepping back. You telling me it'll be perfect and promising me forever and then bang, our perfect kiss. But you didn't and guess what? I realised that day, you aren't him and I love you. I've always searched you in everyone else but settled for people like him because I had almost given up on your existence. I'm so glad about your entire existence. I love you Roan, promise me you won't leave. Promise me you'll provide me the forever I deserve " I cried to him.
How hard was it for me to know that nothing lasted forever and I still hoped for him to last a lifetime.
How hard was it for me to know he was leaving someday and hoping him not to.
Have you ever been in a situation where you knew what you needed exactly and you could have it too but it wasn't to last forever so you just break down and shed tears hoping the water to take away your pain.
"I can't promise you to never leave but I promise to fall in love with you a little more each day till I last." He said. I knew that. I just didn't want to hear it. Hearing I never will, would have been more comfortable. But that was the best part about Roan, he never comforted me with his lies but scratched me with bitter scars; truthful scars. Maybe that is why even after all this time I get butterflies in my belly by just looking at him.
I wept like a baby, he wrapped his warm arms around me. My head on his chest, my ear exposed to his heartbeat, all I could think of was, what if this all ends tomorrow? What if this is the end? I couldn't lose him, it would be too hard to find myself then because losing him would make me lose myself; And I couldn't afford to lose myself. So I hugged him like I'd never leave. The night sky had so many other stories to encounter but somehow it felt as if they all were just listening to us close. Maybe tonight was our night. One night I'd never forget. A night stars would remember as well, and the moon would've cried upon too.
To be continued...
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