Reluctant.

In the hustling of the city,
Somewhere near the noise,
I found a way to escape,
To a land dreamy and moist.
In all the hustling and the bustling, I found a new city,
An all new life was calling me, aware there I stood.
A new city, different people, old scars, new damages,
She was reluctant but she chose not to fear.
A few kicks, a little up and down,
In the rambling of the city, she didn't let her reluctance come in my way.

The mall was crowded, my hands were clenching,
Stare-Stare, I was picking the whore closet.
My clothes etching into me, too small, too exposing,
So there she was reluctant, reluctant to set me free.
Set me free infront of the hungry beast,
Humanly flesh just like steak.
She was reluctant but she set me free.
A pepper spray, a punch on the face,
In a lonely-crowded place, she taught me to be safe.

I fell in love with a boy she couldn't approve,
For we were sixteen, in his lies she saw me drool.
She was reluctant to let me be with him,
For boys break hearts and sometimes it's hard to mend.
She was reluctant but she always had her shoulder for my wet eyes.

In the hustling of the city,
Somewhere near the noise,
My maa taught me to chase my dreams,
Reluctantly, hopelessly, to wander off to become the brightest, happiest beam.