It isn't gray Anymore

It isn't gray anymore,
The first smile and the heartbreak,
In every man, I seek to find you,
The colors, your colors, they still live.
It isn't reticent anymore,
The first laughter and the last goodbye,
It echoes within the sound of every human I meet,
The voices, the loud noises, they never shut down.
It isn't numb anymore,
The feelings and the emotions,
I let out a cry each night before sleeping,
It still hurts, thinking of you.
It isn't sunny anymore,
The day, your face and the beam of hopes,
A fidgeting finger in dilemma of writing to you,
It's just a bundle of pain wrapped in honey now.
It isn't gray anymore,
And neither is it reticent,
It isn't numb anymore,
And it doesn't stop hurting.
It isn't gray anymore,
Though every night I wish it was.